Wednesday, March 05, 2008

Why?

Why does the advesary always kick into overdrive when there is something major spiritual happening in my life? And why is it so distracting?

Why do I miss happy times in the past and regret things I cannot change?

Why does April have MS?

Why does Edie Kaye have cancer?

Why do I have to weigh 50 pounds too much?

Why is it so hard to read my scriptures every day?

Why can't I get to see my parents more often....they only live 30 minutes away?

Why don't I call my sisters more often?

Why haven't I written to my brother like I promised myself I would?



I call this guilty distractions. I often get into this why stage when I am feeling sorry for myself.

Sometimes Satan makes me feel worthless like I am not accomplishing much when really I am. I know things happen in life to give us opportunity for growth. I just don't know how to get out of this "why" mood sometimes. I can usually shake it off but lately It's been eating at me more. Is it because I need to do more? Or is it because I need constant reminders to keep the faith? Is it because I need to grow? I think it's all of the above.
Maybe if I am doing my best then thats all I can do.

1 comment:

April said...

what major spiritual thing is happening in your life? I want to know-

well I too have questions like yours...and some of them are up to God and others are up to us...

so just make a to-do list- it is the only way I get anything done...

and throw guilt to the curb- it is Satan's best tactic to get us down-
it can motivate us however to change for the better maybe- but it is short-winded- I never function well with guilt as a motivator-

love you Calie- I just want to play a little speed scrabble with you!