Hey!

So I have not blogged much lately. I have just kind of taken a break from certain things in my life. I don't know why just that sometimes I just get sick of doing things so I stop for a while. Then I forget about it for a while. I have a really hard time if things are not on my to do list. And I feel really weird about put "blog today" on my to do list. Because then it becomes a chore. Oh ya I got it I am going to make a fun to do list. Only it will be my rewards list. See I knew it would be good for me to get back on here and blog.

Ashlee's Day

Our Ashlee Elizabeth turned 11 yesturday. March 3rd. She is my lucky child born in the month of the Irish.

Ashlee you are an amazing daughter full of wonderful strengths and talents. You continue to amaze me every day with your ability to be happy most of the time. I love to listen to you play the piano. I love to watch you crochet your blankets and scarfs. Your always wanting to start a new way to help people or give all your money away to others. You have an incredible quality that I hope you never loose and thats the ability to care for others and to share what you have with those that are in need. You are a gift born to our family we are so lucky to have you. Thank you for teaching me so much. I learn so much from you daughter of mine. Happy Birthday sweetheart. And may you always have that beautiful heart of yours. I love you!

Love,

Mom

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Do you ever feel like you are just going through the motions of something just to get to the next step or phase or ride or whatever. Today I feel a lot like that. A lot like that water sitting stagnant after the rains have stopped and the tide has gone down. That is how I am beginning to feel about exercising....I am sick of it not working. I am at the gym so much and nothing is changing on my body like it should. It's so frustrating. I am sick of it. I know I am doing this to get healthy and to live longer and be my best self but for cryin out loud I would like a fringe benefit of the gym which is dropping a few pounds....is that too much to ask. No I dont think it is. I know I need to count my calories and all that blah blah blah. But I should be dropping at least 1 or 2 pounds for as much as I work out. A whole year is how long I have been going. Got on the scale this morning and I weigh exactly the same as I did last year at this time. What the heck is that all about?! I guess I am just destined to be the fat chick for life. Whatever. Why am I even blogging this?
Oh well tomorrow is a new day and fresh start. Another spinning class and a jog on the treadmill. More weights to lift blah blah blah. Maybe I just have cabin fever and cannot wait for spring. Yes thats it. Ok off to clean somthing then.