Walking

Saturday I took my sweet mother in law out for a walk. I pushed her in her wheelchair around the driveway and through the flowers. It was peacful and tender and so beautiful. We looked at the trees and flowers and picked a few blackberries that were left and ate them right there on the spot. She said "oh those are so yummy". We had little Ainsley with us and she sat on grandma's lap while we pushed and she helped feed grandma the blackberries. It was such a simple moment and yet so powerful at the same time. It was beautiful and sunny. The warmth of the sun helped with our mood. Mom kept kissing A.J. on the top of her head like she never wanted to forget this moment. She would giggle a little and then close her eyes and rest for a moment. When we went back inside I made her a rootbeer float (something she is craving right now) and then we got her into bed and I kissed her forhead and told her "I love you"and she closed her eyes and fell asleep. I left the room and snuck back in a few minutes later to watch her sleep. I couldnt help it. I did not want to say goodbye. I feel like every goodbye hurts so much. And yet I am commforted in knowing we are part of a bigger picture. Of something so powerful that will transend time.